Dear my hideout,

This is 2.50am in the morning and I couldnot sleep ... again.
There is so many things mixed up in my tiny mind. I need a break. I am scared of sleeping. I had nightmares lately and these are killing me. I think I am obsessed with sth, the thing that hasnot been able for me to kick it out. I hate those headaches man.

Btw, I felt weird today, really weird with a best friend's accent, felt insecure and uncomfortable.

Last words for today, I miss my man so much! U better kill me rather than let me live like this babe ...